The title itself is meaningful... Do you see the differences?
Ya.. when Christmas without christ, it become Xmas...
Christmas is around the corner.. But i still cant sense the happiness surrounding me...
24 days more is the christmas itself, what will my church christmas night be? I am curious, hoping my church member will do it for God, not for the purpose of having fun of it...
Hmm... for myself? I hope that everythings will be okay lor... haha!
Just want to 发泄 here... is my blog what... what to do? haha~
The day before going to Cameron, around 12:00am in the morning, i recieved a message from j (the dance director?).
The content are like this: Aisoon, due to time limitation, i am sorry to inform that i found a new person who is more experience to be Adam, thanks for volunteering yourself as Adam.... bla bla bla... Sorry..... bla bla...
At that particular moment, i feel quite hurt and sad.. I was thinking that, i have beeen dump... maybe due to inexperience in hip-hop dancing... what else could be the reasons? Not handsome? Don't have good body shape? Oh... that's the reason i could think of... Never mind.. IGNORE it... And I just reply her: is okay...
During the cameron trip, XX message me: Sorry if our decision hurt u, we don't mean it.
Maybe because I put my personal status in facebook. i wrote: 我被嫌弃了吗？...... that type of tone... And I just reply him: aha.. is ok...
Actually this incident do affect my mood for awhile... I just keep it to myself..
Then yesterday night, when i wite dairy, saw the things that i wrote, then that particular feeling rises again.. so i just want to share with jessmine, so i told her this morning during boring lecture... hm... She get a bit shock.. and Lynns get a bit angry... Am I doing the wrong thing? I scare both of them will go and quarrel with the committe in CF or committe in the Christmas night... But i stop them from telling... i said: if you do so... I won't forgive you...
Then meet Patrick in library.. suddenly discuss on this topic pula... hmm... surprisingly, he knew... and the shocking news is j is J's sister... and the most shocking news for me is XX ganti my place... hmm.... I feel sad at the moment... very speechless....
Why so uptide... talking to myself... maybe God doesn't want me to get involve so much activity, so that i can spend more time to study... That's the best way to comfort myself right? Friendly speaking.. I do feel hurt.. and talking to myself that... I won't join any performance in coming Christmas night except choir... That's my policy...
Arrhh.... need not be sad anymore la... Give opportunity to others! haha~ Ya... I am not talented.. So what? hahaha~
Ya.. when Christmas without christ, it become Xmas...
Christmas is around the corner.. But i still cant sense the happiness surrounding me...
24 days more is the christmas itself, what will my church christmas night be? I am curious, hoping my church member will do it for God, not for the purpose of having fun of it...
Hmm... for myself? I hope that everythings will be okay lor... haha!
Just want to 发泄 here... is my blog what... what to do? haha~
The day before going to Cameron, around 12:00am in the morning, i recieved a message from j (the dance director?).
The content are like this: Aisoon, due to time limitation, i am sorry to inform that i found a new person who is more experience to be Adam, thanks for volunteering yourself as Adam.... bla bla bla... Sorry..... bla bla...
At that particular moment, i feel quite hurt and sad.. I was thinking that, i have beeen dump... maybe due to inexperience in hip-hop dancing... what else could be the reasons? Not handsome? Don't have good body shape? Oh... that's the reason i could think of... Never mind.. IGNORE it... And I just reply her: is okay...
During the cameron trip, XX message me: Sorry if our decision hurt u, we don't mean it.
Maybe because I put my personal status in facebook. i wrote: 我被嫌弃了吗？...... that type of tone... And I just reply him: aha.. is ok...
Actually this incident do affect my mood for awhile... I just keep it to myself..
Then yesterday night, when i wite dairy, saw the things that i wrote, then that particular feeling rises again.. so i just want to share with jessmine, so i told her this morning during boring lecture... hm... She get a bit shock.. and Lynns get a bit angry... Am I doing the wrong thing? I scare both of them will go and quarrel with the committe in CF or committe in the Christmas night... But i stop them from telling... i said: if you do so... I won't forgive you...
Then meet Patrick in library.. suddenly discuss on this topic pula... hmm... surprisingly, he knew... and the shocking news is j is J's sister... and the most shocking news for me is XX ganti my place... hmm.... I feel sad at the moment... very speechless....
Why so uptide... talking to myself... maybe God doesn't want me to get involve so much activity, so that i can spend more time to study... That's the best way to comfort myself right? Friendly speaking.. I do feel hurt.. and talking to myself that... I won't join any performance in coming Christmas night except choir... That's my policy...
Arrhh.... need not be sad anymore la... Give opportunity to others! haha~ Ya... I am not talented.. So what? hahaha~
Hope this issue won't bring further to discuss...
Just let it be...
And please to my reader... Don't ask me, Don;t ask people and please don't discuss again...
