今天去找了一位医生，向他拿我的成绩。
上个星期考试，Pharmaco paper。
看到我的成绩，虽然没有不及格，但我很不开心。
因为那分数不是很理想，
我只拿到了60分。
看见其他人，至少80分以上，我就觉得，
为什么我会那么的笨。
我为什么会那么的差强人意？
我对自己很失望。
我不是喜欢拿自己与别人比较，
只是，我看不到我努力的成果。
看见自己的努力付出，比不上别人的聪明。
努力得还不够吗？人家不怎么读书，都很棒！
我在怀疑，我自己是不是适合走这条路，
我想放弃，但，我的心告诉我不行。
我应该感到庆幸了吗？
因为至少我没有不及格。
我不是喜欢做比较，只是觉得自己还不够好，
就算觉得自己努力，尽了力，付出多少，
始终，回报的东西，不是在我想达到的范围。
我不想想那么多。
我哭不出来。
就让我伤心一阵子吧。
真的希望下次，我会做得更好。
Os: 付出多少，不一定得到多少，这公平吗？
2 comments:
Every human being is born with his own talent. maybe some of them have better brain capacity and intelligence, but they do put in effort too right. you never know how much effort those people put in actually. or maybe they got firmer basics during those day so they can work faster and better now. just like those have better english proficiency, they can understand study content better. it's still not too late to work hard. your hard work will pay eventually, just that perhaps now isnt the time yet.. add oil aisoon! as long as you have passion in it, nothing can stop you =)
Ya, Maybe they really strong in basic stuff, and have better understanding... Never mind la.. I am okay d.. Haha~ just suddenly 想不开. Perhaps I should get more knowledge in stead of "passing exam", so that next time i can treat patients well... And, 1 more thing is that, at least i tried... So, just disappointed with the outcome, but i give myself full marks for the effort~ Haha!!!
Thanks HuiLi, Pharmacy is also a tough field with those hectic drugs name! Haha! Gambadeh to u also! Be a GOOD Pharmacist ya~ haha!!! XD
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