Saturday night, 2005/10/22 is the Damn bad day 4 me... Let me tell u all the whole story...
1st thing i feel Damn is... Wow... Many committe member refuse to attended the bible study... Is okay... just me kena only ma cause i an the HEAD wut... nvm lo.. Toh Hong said cancel lo.. then i ma go to church to prepare thing 1st, cause cannot let pastor be waiting in the church alone ma... not good 1...
2nd, not even din come bible study... the youth fellowship also don come... The worst is... Hui Hui and Fanny... Both of them sms to help them... Hui Hui sms me to help him to do zhu xi... Fanny want me help her teach choir... walau~ Then i refuse to help them lo...
3rd, The worst is coming.. Kamikasi.. *** said, "Fanny call u do de thing, u got do ma?", Then i reply, "I already told her tat i won help her to teach...", then *** said the most hurted me de phrase... " U n Fanny hor, everytimes do de thing 'yi liu' o..." ... I couldn't reply him... bcause i also feel that i did nth in church... *** help the church, but i din do anything, anything... If i shout at him, maybe he also will merajuk and maybe will bertapa sendiri n dowan come to church liao... After that i sms to Fanny and scold her... Then suddenly my eyes full of water.. my tears drop down without any reasons... been hurted... Then i was thinking, was it my wrong?
Another story that i knew *** was talak syok me.... Lat saturday, hui hui's programme... The ling chang, Angeline was prepared.. Suddenly OHP rosak, then make the keadaan very Kong bu.... haiz~ suai la... When the programme is held, i ask angeline to come wif me to outside for giving her some advice to be the ling chang... Then yu feng sendiri come of our site ther... and then she n i began talk lo.. *** suddenly come..., :don stand outsite and talk... not good ho!" then we ma go in lo... i watch his face was full of angryness... i dono why.... at that moment i realise... *** dah talak syok of me... Maybe? I oso dono.. so tis make me more hate him now.... I cannot 4give him.... i won... i canot 4give, oso canot 4gave myself... being so naive..
CRYING NOW......
this incident was on my mind last night, i couldn't get into sleeep... Very seksa to angry 1 ppl...
Can say smth very tak bertanggungjawap ma? I really feel some regret bcause i accept the job being the president of the touth fellowship...
1.The penasihat thing... Ai Ying jia dah no syok of our committe
2.The bible study programme was been drop down
3.The income member has been ignored... bcause i din take any action
4.The committe like break into small group...
5.The jing xiu hui de pro....
N more... i cannot list down 1 by 1...
I really not responsible, not berkaliber, not prefect to be the president...
I had let the ppl feel disappointed already....
But i also feel very disappointed... Everytime only i care of the programmme... the other committe doesn't cooperate... share the problem together... walau~ Church not mine 1, is all of us... OF OF US.... Ok?
Nvm lo.... Tis saturday will have another ppl, another committe member who can bring up the church, youth fellowship.... Hope God will with us tat time.. hope the income committe will be the choice of ***, then *** won see my face anymore.... Maybe is true... O maybe not... I oso dono wut am i typing now...
Lastly.... Hope the income o new committe member will cooperate, don quarrel n be happy lo... Wish u and God bless you all....
Amen.
