心情愉快

恭喜我们都过关！

今天成绩终于揭晓。。

成功过关。。

加油！

好好的休息三个月！

然后再冲刺吧！

距离我的梦想不远了！

I am freeeeeeeeee

Finally after 1 month plus I suffered, my nightmare comes to an end now.

Today was my last paper, overall 3% in my professional exam,

but still is a MUST pass paper...

So is a bit tense...

Thank God that I gone through this so-called difficult times.

I had the thought of trying to give up,

I had the thought of doesn't want to continue,

I had the thought of WHY we have to suffered?

But now... I am free...

I am totally free for the next three months~

I am free from the stress...

Haha!! Thank God for that!

Next monday will be the result release day,

praying for PASS...

Yeah! I am Free like a Ball!!!

God Bless!! :)

爱，一个人就好。

你的心离这么近，我也觉得不可思议

突然就想说爱你，我想你也不会相信

如果你还再靠近，我会来不及做反应

不是不想在一起，只怕我会伤害到你。

不想了

想了好久，担心了好久

决定不再想了

她已去新加坡求医，应该没大碍。

要好好读书，考试将近！

不想了~

Results

Finally, the result out already....

Same as my expectation, is squamous cell carcinoma.. In short, is a malignant cancer... This cancer are in the esophagus area.

The causes of this cancer, typically is high alcohol consumption. Yes, she did. Smoking, smoke food and etc.

She seems like already know her condition, and she said, she already prepare to go to heaven.

I don't know what to say, i just keep quiet.. And I do really hope the cancer cells haven't spread to other part of her body. I just pray for that. Tomorrow morning will bring her go do CT scan, to check the distant metastasis.

After the doctor told her about her condition. I bring her back to her house.

Maybe I was too quiet.

In the car, she mentioned, she don't want to do surgery.

Even do, also din't know how much time she left.

and she said, " hopefully can survive 2 more years until the day you graduated."

I hold my breath, I couldn't cry in front of her.

I just patted her shoulder, and say :" You will, trust in you.."

She walked out the car, she didn't turn her head back.

I know, she wanted to cry...

So i decided not to walk down of the car.

Let her be alone first..

Tonight will go find her again...

Pray God to strengthen her faith. Not to let her down.

Pray God that she will be fine.

Pray God that she will not suffer much for her condition now.

Pray God that she will able to survive until the day I graduated..

Amen.

祈祷...

虽然我不能够为你做些什么，

但我只能为你祈祷。

祈求明天的报告不是我想象的那样严重，

祈求情况不是那么的严重...

也不知是好还是坏，

看见你那么乐观的面对，

似乎对自己将离开做了打算，

我也不知该说些什么。