BaD tHiNgS aGaIn....

Today my mood very dull… and very down… After listen to my best partner.. I feel very angry + disappointed + sad….. I dono how to describe tat feeling… just very ‘em dai’ only… I know I was wrong, but isn’t he also was wrong also? Luckily, I don go to church when my exam… if not… I will surely be smashed… means tat I cannot concentrate my tension in exam time… I am not trying to giving excuse to skip the youth fellowship… I just want to avoid the criticize from tat fellow… who was very YELLOW ship everytime… If I heard the criticize from him… I will trying myself to think over again… Is it the things he say is true? Or he simply say only… then I will become very confuse… because I will look through the problem… So, isn’t it I skip the youth fellowship is the best choice? And 1 more, I just want to pay my fully attention in my study~ because I cannot play ma, this year will decide whether I will STPM or college…

This year… my final year… SPM year… was already giving me a big big pressure… plus more the youth feloowship’s president… preesure + pressure… haiz~ dono how to say… I know I have no leadership, but I am also trying to do well… to help, to done the best.. From the beginning of the year, nothing had happened. I know that there are some quarrelsome in our committee member. But I try to ignore it. Then, the problem was become very seriously. Until I also get into it. Now I were very suffering, whether I want to continue, or I want to quit myself, just stand at the side to look them working hard? Har? I had no better answer.

I haven’t mention today’s incident. Last night, I went to my aunt’s wedding party. So I do not go to church. I thought pui yeen haven’t did the decoration of the church, so I decided from today, I will trying my best to help her, just like last year Lieh Wei was trying hard to help me.. so, I went to church today at 10 morning.. when I step into the church, I was quite surprise, I saw some decoration on the wall. “Oh, pui yeen started to decorate already”, I noticed. After that, when she came, I asked her. “Not me, is YELLOW guy did 1”, she replied. Oh! I am very surprise on that because I thought that he and Zayne are incharge at outsider decoration. So, I ask pui yeen to ask him wether the side decoration think liao ma. Then! The most I hated de answer appear from that YELLOW guy…. (I also heard some only, not very clear) “If I did not start to do, who will start, then finally also will ask me to do”,”Call him not to come already because I scare the decoration he did will not match the things I did it now”, “call him incharge the funny show”, “This year who were sitting exam 1 very ‘DAI SAI’”….. I want to slap him if I am not controlling myself… Then pui yeen ask him, who will did the funny show? He replied,” Neh! The people who are very free after the exam…..” Wah! I really be3 tahan, no one call him to do la, he want to do himself…. Waihai! I did not (re)3 him, he dare to say like that.. make me very angry meh! I was angry because why last year he did not show his kepo, but this year he did!

Poh Chin told me before, YELLOW guy actually is a good guy, he is very concern about the people.. Oh my God.. why I did not mention this in his personality? Or YELLOW guy only good with the ladies more than a man? But he was very good with Waylon, Zayne and Liek Choon o…. After he scolded me, we have a last meeting for this year’s committee member. I was shocked because Zayne looks like very no syok with me… But anyway, I already known, because he and YELLOW guy just like a pair of brothers ma… I really regret why I did not solve the quarrelsome that we make from the beginning of the year. But now are to late already.. okloh! Nevermind. From next year onward, I will not appear on your eye sight anymore, I will not going to meet you anymore, I will not be your friends anymore. I will not remember you anymore… and last word, I HATE YOU.

Last time I hate you because you scolded me, but now I hate you is because of your personality.. So, YELLOW guy. Hope next year you will bring the church up, you will make more member of youth fellowship, Hope God will bless you….

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Finally my exam over already....

My TMnet prepaid card has bcome moneyless when my SPM around... so thank God... hahaha... If not I will play com day by day.....

Many thing had happen in this month....

I had many feeling...

The things come make me feel sucks...

I feel very unhappy... Stress... Disappointed... surprise...

Haiz~ now lazy to write out la... Keep it in my mind is okay already...

Haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My Sadness Days....

Finally i have time to set my blog now....

Saturday night, 2005/10/22 is the Damn bad day 4 me... Let me tell u all the whole story...

1st thing i feel Damn is... Wow... Many committe member refuse to attended the bible study... Is okay... just me kena only ma cause i an the HEAD wut... nvm lo.. Toh Hong said cancel lo.. then i ma go to church to prepare thing 1st, cause cannot let pastor be waiting in the church alone ma... not good 1...

2nd, not even din come bible study... the youth fellowship also don come... The worst is... Hui Hui and Fanny... Both of them sms to help them... Hui Hui sms me to help him to do zhu xi... Fanny want me help her teach choir... walau~ Then i refuse to help them lo...

3rd, The worst is coming.. Kamikasi.. *** said, "Fanny call u do de thing, u got do ma?", Then i reply, "I already told her tat i won help her to teach...", then *** said the most hurted me de phrase... " U n Fanny hor, everytimes do de thing 'yi liu' o..." ... I couldn't reply him... bcause i also feel that i did nth in church... *** help the church, but i din do anything, anything... If i shout at him, maybe he also will merajuk and maybe will bertapa sendiri n dowan come to church liao... After that i sms to Fanny and scold her... Then suddenly my eyes full of water.. my tears drop down without any reasons... been hurted... Then i was thinking, was it my wrong?

Another story that i knew *** was talak syok me.... Lat saturday, hui hui's programme... The ling chang, Angeline was prepared.. Suddenly OHP rosak, then make the keadaan very Kong bu.... haiz~ suai la... When the programme is held, i ask angeline to come wif me to outside for giving her some advice to be the ling chang... Then yu feng sendiri come of our site ther... and then she n i began talk lo.. *** suddenly come..., :don stand outsite and talk... not good ho!" then we ma go in lo... i watch his face was full of angryness... i dono why.... at that moment i realise... *** dah talak syok of me... Maybe? I oso dono.. so tis make me more hate him now.... I cannot 4give him.... i won... i canot 4give, oso canot 4gave myself... being so naive..

CRYING NOW......

this incident was on my mind last night, i couldn't get into sleeep... Very seksa to angry 1 ppl...

Can say smth very tak bertanggungjawap ma? I really feel some regret bcause i accept the job being the president of the touth fellowship...

1.The penasihat thing... Ai Ying jia dah no syok of our committe

2.The bible study programme was been drop down

3.The income member has been ignored... bcause i din take any action

4.The committe like break into small group...

5.The jing xiu hui de pro....

N more... i cannot list down 1 by 1...

I really not responsible, not berkaliber, not prefect to be the president...

I had let the ppl feel disappointed already....

But i also feel very disappointed... Everytime only i care of the programmme... the other committe doesn't cooperate... share the problem together... walau~ Church not mine 1, is all of us... OF OF US.... Ok?

Nvm lo.... Tis saturday will have another ppl, another committe member who can bring up the church, youth fellowship.... Hope God will with us tat time.. hope the income committe will be the choice of ***, then *** won see my face anymore.... Maybe is true... O maybe not... I oso dono wut am i typing now...

Lastly.... Hope the income o new committe member will cooperate, don quarrel n be happy lo... Wish u and God bless you all....

Amen.

My Favourite Drama.....

This Japan Drama really attract me watch it somemore...

To Be Continue.............

My Weekend

Hahahha... I was felt asleep last night... Opps... no, is this morning... Let me share the story~

After youth fellowship... We decided to go to Lumut to gai gai! Then suddenly... siokky plan to go to Ayer Tawar to eat steamboat~ Wow... so syok la... But... the time was 11:16p.m. , i still remember..

Then ma go lo... Got william, leong ping, me, zayne, hui hui, hong ping, ah hua, chi xiang, n siokky....

Eat about RM 43... Then go back liao... wah! actually i still

hungry + tired = Sleepy

Really... coz i wear contact lenz... Haiz~ Really...

Tired... 1:00 a.m. baru balik.....

Haiz~ Sunday liao.. I have to wake up by 8 o clock!!!! Cause want to teach sunday school!!! Wah! They all r monkey in the jungle la... din respect we as a teacher!!! Hate to teach them....

After that do very sia sui things... I do ling chang ... Sing wut song i also dono.. can just say a word

TALOK

really... dono why the ppl dowan open their mouth to sing, then the pianist also... haiz~ Really la... maybe the song is toooooooo unsuitable to us anymore...

Happy time! we go for eat...

Eat Ayamas~ I really want to test it 4 a long time liao..... Hahahhahaha, we go to eat lo.... In front of the Ceria supermarket... Then after that we go to Ceria buy Mini Ice-cream.. we still young la....

Hong ping, me , pei ying, qian ying n fanny lo.... Then we all go to Fanny house have party... not la.. just want to sit down only....

Then we all talk many things... sharing the story between gals n guys.. i was shocked that many gals really spend a lot of money when they go shopping... wah! so SURPRISE...All rubbish only.... GOSSIPING... can say like tat... hahahhahahahahhhahaahahaa...

My weekend not very meaningful, but i think after SPM not like the same anymore... HAVE FUN~ hahhahaah

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Hahahahahaha.......... YEAH!

Today is my birthday.... So happy....

Kwan.s.s, Yyvonne,Mr.Loo,Janice,LHC give me a surprise... a shirt.... very beautiful... cool la....

Then another surprise is, Yap Yap n Tze Wei.... Send pizza to my house.... hahahhaahhaa..... Wau... Cool Man... Really thank you la... U all Is DA best.... Hope u all will done well, Very well in ur SPM... Plus Oil!

20050920

T_T..........

I failed my sejarah!!!

Dono Y...... Fell very Sad la......

Today I saw my sejarah teacher soooo angry... He really feel disappointed of us... he said that we look him down.. But some of us don la... just a few person only!! Like that Monkey Teh... Hate that guy..

Never mind heh!~ I will go ask for tips... Hahaha~ Dono he also will consider me as the person who make him sooooo Damn angry o not... Hahaha..

20050920

Finally..... Trial Exam over liao....

* Pls: Last time leanordhuron25847550 giving me comment... can u add me at friendster? My e-mail is wewe2002jeff@icqmail.com ... Just wana have more frens only...

My Exam week really make me suffer all the time...

Walau~ I really suffer la... Why they arrange the time like tat.. N the question also really hard la.... Die liao lo....

Last few weeks, many things happened..

Firstly, talk about my church member...

I feel that my church reaaly have to sit down n talk lo.. They reaaly seems like fighting each others... although they very good all the time..... The relationship between the committe member also din good.. looks like divide into many groups... scare sometimes will esploded...

Then, the kam mou back liao... he offers to have meeting.... So cheap la.. Meeting also din very good la... Cannot make decision also..... So have meeting for wat? reaaly feel sucks!!!! I have the opinion that i hope to fly out the committe of the church as soon as possible.... really cannot tahan la!~ But, will GOD punish me?

Next, In school, there is nth special on tat matter.... just exam, exam n exam....

Haiz~~~

Then, the art teacher, outside 1, Mr. Lee... He said somethings that really hurt me so much... never mind lo.. still got 1 week only ma... can fly liao, useless liao la u..... Cheh!~

Finally, Hope this exam result will bring happinest to me, not sadness then ok already....

A men.....

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Today, I am very angry....

When we had Biology class in Bio lab.... I completely didn't heard what Mr. No Guna.... While he is talking in front... I am talking at the back.. Actually Is my fault first....

Suddenly, He called me to tell him wat is the problem tat i having..... Means that i am not listening to wat he said.. so what r u doing there... I said nth.. Then He say smth make me very very Damn angry... He said I had been MUTASI.... walau~ Hina me like tat... I very tak syok oledi..., Then suddenly A GUY!!!! Is he!!!! Mr. Kwan... Said that I had a problem.... Is 'ketidakseimbang hormom'!!!!! Walau! U think who r u!!! Aren't U r my best friend... U say like tat... U din help me... malahan kick me in front of the class......

At that moment, I was very very disappointed... + Angry...... I noticed that ... actually i just a toys of he!~ Okay lo.... never mind... Continue wif my stories....

Then the teacher asked... am i talking at the back.... i replied, " No, Statisfy?"

Then i cried......

I know i was doing wrong... But wut the teacher was thinking? Isn't he also wrong?

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I feel very guilty today~Cause i angry Shiang Shen then he..... Haiz~ Why friends must quarrel?

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Haiz~~~ The sensitive topic appear again.... Somebody kutuk somebody then give many ppl know.... Haiz~ why this things must be the issue that want to appear in church? when will be solve this problem also dono.... Haiz~ Fang la!!!!

God... Can u help us? show us the way? Our spirit life is very very low already, now how to solve without the cleverness that u give us? Jesus....

The things happen that CY thought that many ppl kutuk at the back.... said that she very wat wat wat..... Then this news spread out..... many ppl involve.... then salah faham liao lo~ Haiz~ Din check properly..... just refused to come to church again! wakau~ If every! act like tat, still got who want to come to church? Haiz~~~~~~~So disappointed......

If every body bertolak-ansur.... give another chance to them... let them realize tat they r wrong..... ok? then won be so much problem lol~~~~

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Well, today actually my mood is very very good... Unfortunately... somebody smash my mood down very deep.... I wanna ask God, why? How? When? Who? Which? What........ Too many question... cannot mention all........

I don understand why i myself only scare the things only.... isn't it are our business? why?

Is it very hard to semo1 do the Lord job? Lord, Father, would u give me , show me ur way?

Simple Plan ^PrEfEcT^

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think i'm wasting my time

Doing things I wanna do?

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that I'm all rightand you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it allNothing last for everI'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and we can't go backI'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing last for everI'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and we can't go backI'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said

Nothing's gonna make this right again

Please don't turn your backI can't believe it's hard just to talk to you

But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it allNothing last for everI'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and we can't go backI'm sorry I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it allNothing last for everI'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and we can't go backI'm sorry I can't be perfect

This is the song Waylon introduce the first english song to me, Prefect... I still know at that time i going crazy b'cause of tis song... It does really really touch for me... U know why? This is the song which make him n me to be the BEST BEST friend... Really it does....

But now.... we were not contact to each other very long time... I still remember... I think i had did wrong la... cause i ignore the testimonial which is sending by him at friendster.. He said that he was very bored... Need some1 concern bout him.. But .. That's all my fault lo... Now very very seldom go gai gai oledi... He also very busy wat! quite long he din come back oledi....
Haiz~

Erm.. Today In School

Erm!! Today is 13/5/2005

I go to school around 7:10 a.m., when i first step into the school, i feel very nervous, i dono how to give the present to Pn. Lai... so, i walk n walk... then i 'gu qi yong qi' go to office to put the present on her table... then Miss mok suddenly ask me the teacher who is teaching us physic, so i answer her.. Then i say GOOD MORNING to Mr. Victor, My history teacher...

So i quickly walk into there, put the things on table... and then go away... go to my class....

Along the road, i saw a man.. U know who? Is wei Hong.. Our 'BELIAU' the drum major of the school.. he laugh at me bcause my hair style... he said that my head bcome very round.. like a ball.. then i ignore it... then many many ppl come liao... they also laugh at me.... bcause my hair really really short.. I am thinking that if someday i go to NS... then my hair bcome shorter than this time.. then more ppl will laugh lo...

Then BI teacher, Mdm Theresa gives us do SPM revision Question.... Actually i really weak lo... After that HUI CHIN told teacher that me n shiang shen will go to her tuition class... haha! he say nothing, then just agree only....

Then Biology period... Damn Bored!!! Really feel Suck! The Mr. No Guna scold us that not bringing the flower... that is his fault u know?! who call u sick last time! Then i do MT at that moment ... Haha!!! Then suddenly feel that my BIo will die liao lo.... if i din study properly....Then i promise myself that must study more hard in Bio....

Then Mt period... Mr. Cheong teach us new chapter... something were happen... Dono why, suddenly we pick up the sensitive issue... Adrian N Hui Chin, then hui chin angry us... Then me, JJ just change place lo.. Haha! then she really angry o... Then the bell ring liao.. i rush out to go to canteen to eat!!! i am damn hungry!

After eat.. i went back to my class... i saw hui chin n adrian was chit chatting o... looks like they very high ar! hahah.. then i go to find pui yeen.. she is not in class... so i forget it liao....

Then BC period... Miss Tan let us do some exercises... In that moment.. It's Damn!!! Damn!!! HOt!!! cannot tahan!

History period, Mr. Victor talk on the PILIHAN RAYA.... but i 'chuang zi tiao' to hui chin.. i feel sorry with her, i said, then nth liao lo... Then Shiang shen critik me thAT i am toooo fat!!! cheap!!! i also critik him back.. we play zui zui! just like a kid... haiz!~

Then Ma period... Wah! teacher gives us back the paper... i got 30%.. hahahahha, so happy.. Then nth special liao la.... just like that lo... HeHe!

Wut a buzy week....

Walau so.. buzy ar

Me buzy for doing project, preparing Exam lo..., Church n other things...

N then my mid year exam result... Below are my bad result...

Bm-65

Bc-71

Bi-63

Ma-90

Sej-78

Pm-65

Pjk-67

Mt-85

Fizik-72

Kimia-70

Bio-60

Est-71

70.83% n get 33 in class.. n 38 in Form 5

Wut i remember i write lo...

I still remember that i rush to do my art project.... Last minute work...

My friend so geng... she is a gal.. she really boleh kira last last minute.... She is yi ji bang ... Hahahaha

I still remember.. Fanny said that.. when SPM exam... she won come to sunday praise.. but she will go to teach sunday school... Walau.. cannot continue ar? I dono la.. None of my buisness... So... wut should i care for..? She herself gave explaination to God only.... Haha!

N ho.... Me really thank God because He let me meet a lot friends in Class 5SD... haha!

Like Shiang Shen, Hui Chin, Yap Yap, N Tze Wei.... Haha! They really very high... when we were talking.... We all can reach the highest point... That is laugh until whole class complain..... haha! N cannot forget 1 person.. Kah Ling also... She really a 'xiao chou'.. our 'kai xing guo'..... Hope this friendship will lasts forever lo.. Ok?

Hey! Friendship Forever.....

Waihai~

Today Damn suai!!!!

My mom lie me!!! I hate U!!!! Shit!!!!

She don let me buy a new contact lens....

Wahai~!

My Moooood....

Time pass very very Damn fast....

I thought that i will follow my plan.. But unfortunately, OUT OF MY PLAN>.....

Walau! now is June oledi....

I still play n play n play....

This time really wanna die oledi!!

Ok, ! I promise my self!!!!

MUST STUDY laio!

Very Sad.......

Haiz~very sad!!!!

I kena National Service.....

Wat i scare is.. My church... i wanna leave it.... Cannot join them caroline, Christmas Job.... And also the camp........... Haiz~!!!! so disapointed......

Abou me lol.... n others.....

My name is Ling Ai Soon, this year sitting for SPM already......
My hometown is sitiawan, i love it so much, but there was no place for me to play anymore, i would like to fly away from here... Many people say maybe i will regret, cause my friend outside there say, it will be better if he stay in sitiawan... No pressure at all... How do I believe if I don experience it? hahhahah, very hard to get an good answer.
I had nothing to say about me, just one phrase...
"If u treat me good, i will also good with you, but if u treat me bad, i won't talk with you"
Am I cruel? This is because I had an experince at this incident before....
My friend, good friend who i know him since standard one, he 'kianat' me when we in form one... He kutuk me at my back... It is soooo hurt... and feel sux....
After that, I will carefully choose my friends... besides church friends...
I am a christian, I am proud of it... My church situated in new road... names CHUNG HWA...
No many people knew it cause it is too 'pian pi'....
My church don have pastor, just have a 'lady' who everytime 'bluffing' one.. Hate this feeling, hope someday will change lor... Just pray for it... Hope someday she will change her mind and the church will 'fu xin qi lai' lo....
My church member quiet ok la... BUt some wow........
Can I list out their attitude which i know de? Some i dono....
1st, Geng Rui, He actually is quiet good in bible study.... He also very IN... like to hiaskan himself with many many types of jenama clothes... But he is very small gas... Easily angry.... Sometimes u will hate his attitude which u cannot tahan...
2nd, Liek Choon, He also very good in bible studying... He very active... and like to show his handphone... But he will easily angry also... he wll share other ppl wrong to somebody else... actually sometimes i also do that.. then one things i don agree is, Why we must be carefull of our best friend? means nak berjaga-jaga n defend.. How could it be? I cannot do that...
3rd, Siok King, She also know sedikit in bible study, i heard somebody say she not very well la, but i dono... she very friendly... n also quiet 'ganas' lo... cause always 'bully' liek choon de... she always 'squeeze' his hand n become oChe.... hahaha.. 1 things that i feel is she also very small gas... i feel la... dono how to explain, my english go limited de....
4th, Clement, He also know sedikit in bible study, not very sure... He also very very friendly... n bermulut manis... all the gals will easily falling in love with him...hahahaha.... Somebdy said he kutuk orang in wrong timing... n then the problem appear... i dono la, but i don like his attitude lo... wearing slipper to church, kacau when the jie mu is jalan... haiz~ quiet disapointed ....
5th, Hoong Ping, He also very good in bible study.. He is pendiam one... but after joining tis church, he will bully gals... hahahah.. I dono him very well. but i know 1 things is he quiet degil lo... dono la...
6th, Zhong Xing, He also good in bible study, But his attitude we don like is, he like to be a leader... every time has a big deal, he try to say somethings... hahaah canot tahan.. and he also like to pull the job on other ppl... that's wut i feel last christmas... Wow, i shock when heard that phrase... Besides that, he also very miang... like to 'PO MONG' gals... Gals... Be careful...
7th, William, He likes to play lo... not good in bible study, friendly... like to 'bang' cool.... n sometimes very fan.. cause wutever he say, will be the same topic.. haiz~
8th, Fanny, She very weak in bible study, although she very pretty, white, i don like her style... Say is YI LIU, then Do IS nothing.... Wow... also same as Clement.. i think.... Then hor she always talk nonsense things... she talk din fikir first, then easily make other ppl angry de..., then hor.. she also quiet bad in manners gua... that's wut i think la...
9th, Hui Hui, She is the tabah gals that i meet, she quiet mystery lo... don tell me many things de... don share with me at all.. haiz~ And then sometimes i feel she sengaja PI KAI her job lo.. dono la... quiet pretty de... last time i had gossip with her.. but i won fall in love with my church members de... that is my prinsip...
10th, Liek Wei, he also weak in bible study hey... then very friendly, talkative, always laugh for nothing.... very good in art lo.... creative.... Then i thing i don suan is, he will easily angry other person lo...
11st, Toh Hong, He very handsome, is Siok king brother…He quiet friendly and quiet Vain lo…. Noq form four… no heart to study 1, active also, and his kelebihan is… kao lui.. hahaha… !things I feel is, he go to church macam go to play lo… dono is true o not…
12nd, Siok Weng.. She very weak lo…. Macam haiwan terlindung, n u know wut? Leonard loves her… hahahahah… mayb they will dating after a moment, hahaha…. Dono la… she quiet pendiam, okla, can say pretty la… then her voice very smooth till canot hear at all.. hahahaha.. dono why she act like tat?
13rd, Zee Lee, quiet acyive de person, and he sometimes act same like Clement…. U know wat… I feel that he macam ‘da nan ren’ has his own opinion.. I still remember last year de Christmas I hope to get his help, but unfortunately.. he don …. Haiz~ N then last year de camp, we quarrel lo… means group to group de… then feel guilty.. Sorry ar….
14th, Pui Yeen, she quiet silly de, everytime we fool her.. hahahahah.. and then I quiet hate the way she talk to us.. wow… fan ar…. Sometimes this, then sometimes that de… Wah!!!! Cannot make decision de….
15th, Me.., quiet ok la… sometimes I will very active lo… then also easily angry…
Very tired to type liao… Next time ar….