考试的季节

考试的季节就正式开始了

所有的人都埋头苦读，

而我还在这里blogging,

真是堕落。

看见身边的朋友，在考试的季节中变色，

在考试前胡思乱想，在考试前变残，

觉得很可悲。

原来考试可以打败一个人的信念。

其实我也怕怕，不过，

始终也是要面对。

那么就选择勇敢的去面对，

开开心心的迎接这挑战！

加油，朋友们！

囧

又是考试季节！现在的我在study week...

为自己加油~ 要比上次好很多！哈哈！

希望接下来的selanjar 和 Professional Exam 都顺顺利利！

台湾！我来也~

哈哈 尽力而为咯！

生命无常

人的生命真的很渺小。

最近听闻了很多噩耗。

虽然不是我的亲人，虽然我不认识他们，

但，基于我的人性，我也悲伤在其中。

不知是不是上天给人们开了个玩笑？

让这班年轻的学生走上不归路。

钟铃学校一夜之间失去六名师生。

另外一则噩耗，是在facebook里头看到，

她，跟我同年龄，夜间驾车，遇上车祸，

由于伤势严重，救不回了。

亲人为了圆了死者的意愿，决定捐献器官给需要的人。

年级轻轻，却面对了死亡，

真的觉得上天好不公平。

他们还有很长的路要走，

但却踏上了一条不归路。

感慨为何生命那么脆弱。

上一秒还在蹦蹦跳跳，下一秒却冷冷冰冰。

想想我到底有没有在珍惜我身边的人，事，物？

如果有一天，我就这样走了，会留下生命中的遗憾吗？

我身边的人会很伤心吧？

我也会很痛心。

想太多了~ 做好心理准备。。

我为你们的离去哀悼一天。

心的方向

心不在这，怎么呼唤也没用。

Today i was the one who present case with wai eng. I in charge on the physical examination part.

Just because the patient admitted long time ago, so i just skip some of the physical examination.

And i thought that he is going to be discharge, so I can just find another patient on spot to perform physical examination.

But the doctor said go to his department and present the case.

I was shock.

I am so scare cause I didn't prepare.

I did not prepare the thorough physical examination's report.

Well, I just present a very minor part of my findings.

He can't accept. He said:" we do things have to be systematic, must do from head to toe, no SHORTCUT!"

Although he is not scolding me, but i know, he is angry of my presentation.

Yet, I know, it was sucks!!

So shit the presentation.

我真的很懒，一直都在为自己找借口，一直让自己好过！

我到底是怎么了？我为了什么进来这个科系？

我有资格吗？

我真的需要反省我自己，我的心到底这么了？

之前的我真的好像得过且过，根本不是在充实的过活。

我就好像有个身躯，身躯里是空壳，

因为当初的那份热诚，那份勤劳的心已不在了。

我要将它找回！

我不要再迷失了，

我要找回我自己。

A letter to Mr.XYZ

Christmas Night's reflections

The annual Christmas night passed.

And now I want to comment something here.

Since this is my blog, I can write or do whatever I want.

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To Mr. XYZ

First of all, congratulations!

Christmas Night for this year,

Hmmm... it is really a great night, despite all the technical and lighting problems.

The exhibition, food, sketch, performances all are doing great! Congratulations...

The message that bring out no matter from exhibition or from sketch itself, really pretty good..

I do not think it's bad result, but the process that it does not.

I feel like actually there is something missing.

I feel like Christmas night this year is no longer an event that is to build the relationship among the christian community.

Maybe I'm being oversensitive?

But I really doesn't feel like we do this is for the sake of God,

but is for the sake of successfulness.

Is not that i want to critize you, because i saw something else happened.

The people that willing to help, not given a chance to help;

the people that willing to help, being push to other department to help.

Want some evidence right? Here I give you one:

After the Christmas night event, I went down and find my friends.

Saw 1 junior, and I 38 and ask, "why u come back so early?

Saw you in nurani hall when we were practising the sketch."

He answered," Ya, actually come back early is for the sketch purpose.. but end up.."

I was shocked and doesn't know how to continue our conversation..

I just feel sorry for him... And i just smile at him and walked off..

He is a victim too... OH gosh!! How many victims are there now???!!!

Actually I am very angry~ Angry that they actually ignoring people,

angry that they actually not giving people chance to serve..

angry.. angry and angry... Arrrhhhhh....

What happened to them ar?

Aren't they feel shame towards the victims?

Is these how you can treat people?

If God ignore you, how will you feel???!!!!

Or maybe i am oversensitive~ or maybe I am a bit dumb

or maybe this things happened last year, previous year, last last year?

I do not know.

One thing that I know is... We are not doing right things.

What we have done is not pleasing to God.

And I know, what I did now also not pleasing to God.

We do not live out Christ's example.

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I just want to give vent to my emotions.

Don't ask me anymore.. I won't give any respond nor comment!