心的方向

心不在这，怎么呼唤也没用。

Today i was the one who present case with wai eng. I in charge on the physical examination part.

Just because the patient admitted long time ago, so i just skip some of the physical examination.

And i thought that he is going to be discharge, so I can just find another patient on spot to perform physical examination.

But the doctor said go to his department and present the case.

I was shock.

I am so scare cause I didn't prepare.

I did not prepare the thorough physical examination's report.

Well, I just present a very minor part of my findings.

He can't accept. He said:" we do things have to be systematic, must do from head to toe, no SHORTCUT!"

Although he is not scolding me, but i know, he is angry of my presentation.

Yet, I know, it was sucks!!

So shit the presentation.

我真的很懒，一直都在为自己找借口，一直让自己好过！

我到底是怎么了？我为了什么进来这个科系？

我有资格吗？

我真的需要反省我自己，我的心到底这么了？

之前的我真的好像得过且过，根本不是在充实的过活。

我就好像有个身躯，身躯里是空壳，

因为当初的那份热诚，那份勤劳的心已不在了。

我要将它找回！

我不要再迷失了，

我要找回我自己。